Yesterday I was all fired up to get on here and complain about my children. The last few days their attitudes have been insane and their behaviors have been off the wall. Then I realized that a lot of that has been my fault (not all of it, but I know I am at least a little to blame)... Mealtimes have been unplanned, bedtimes have been pushed back (to say the least) and when we are playing, I feel like I mentally haven't been there this week!

On top of their behaviors putting me partly to blame, I realized another HUGE part... Is that REALLY The state of mind that I want to put myself into? Don't get me wrong.. There are days that I will REALLY need to vent about the boys, but right now (especially with the holidays right around the corner) I know that I have so much to be thankful for. Yes, they were driving me crazy in Target last night, with the fighting over snacks, not wanting to sit, not listening when they got the privilege of getting out of the cart, whining and crying, but that is something that NEVER happens, so I guess I am owed one horrible shopping trip here and there.

Thankfully, I didn't let that horrible shopping adventure consume me. I knew it was something temporary (even if it felt like it was never going to end). My kids are healthy (and with exception to the Target shopping fiasico) they are happy, and that in return is something that I should be VERY happy and thankful for... I guess the main thing that I am trying to get at is just a reminder that you can't always control the situation, but you can always control the amount of your energy that you will allow that situation to consume.

Have a good day everyone... I hope I will! ;)

Why I Am Here...

A friend of mine recently asked me why I started/what made me start blogging.... So, I guess I will try to write a complete thought before going off on my typical tangents. 

I have had many times where I have a genius idea to keep track of the boys' milestones, cute things they say or do and even just our daily activities.  However, all of those turn into a huge failure.. If you can't tell by my lack of consistency with blogging.  Anyways...

I mostly started this for them.  I hoped that someday I could print off my posts and give it to them as a book of their 'story'.  But the more I thought about it and the more I wrote, the more I realized that I was the one that really needed this, not so much them! Seriously.. My whole day is about them, I deserve a few moments to myself from time to time! : )

Don't get me wrong, I know most of the time I am either bragging about them or cursing about them to you all, but that is for ME.  Blogging is my way to share my stories, strengths and insecurities with you all.  And with that... Even more reason to write was born.  I know some of you who read don't have kids, but many of you do (and most of you will someday) and the response that I received from what I wrote was outstanding.  I was told that it was like I was writing what others were thinking, but weren't sure if it was ok to say.  Well, I have never been much a person to follow the rules of etiquette, so I will be the 'bad' one that makes you all feel normal.

Seriously though, there are so many moms/wives/women out there that often feel the exact same way that I do and we are all just begging to know that what we are feeling is completely normal.  My days aren't all rainbows and sunshine and neither are yours, and guess what.. That is ok.  I would be more concerned if my life was 'perfect'... How boring and scary would that be?

I started this with the idea that maybe a couple of moms that I know would check it out and maybe my mom would read it to see what the boys have been up to (and I know that my following isn't big by any means), but I never thought I would have the support that I do.  And you may all think that I don't want to hear it, but I love when you guys bug me about not posting for awhile.  That is another main reason of why I wanted to make it public... I want others to know that this is important to me and help me keep this a priority.  You may think you're nagging me, but it is a kick in the butt and a confidence boost all in one when you kindly (or not so kindly) remind that I am neglecting my online life!  So please.. Remind me when you want more!  I can't promise that it will be good, but I do promise to put in an effort.  So, thanks Jessica for requesting this.. It got me to sit back down and remind myself WHY I should be posting more!

Like I have said before, I have big plans for this blog (someday) and with the help/following of you guys, I hope it can become something that I am very proud of!

Promise to Post... Soon!

Hey!  Sorry I have sucked at life lately, but I have had a lot on my plate. 

Anyways, I promise to return (hopefully tomorrow morning) with a most likely not too glamorous post (have I mentioned that the last couple of weeks have sucked).

Night all!  Hopefully I will return to my online haven soon!